Sunday, March 15, 2009

What is more important???



Sitting back on the garden chair in my Vasai home is quiet relaxing. From here I can see my small garden which as of now has a hibiscus plant and a Tulsi. I have sowed in seeds of Gendha, which may take a month or so to grow, but still I can visualize the beaming orange color flower shooting up it head, dancing in the air :)

What is more important??? Is it home or the concept of home??? Does the four cement pillars forms home, or is it what we feel about a place makes a home?? Do we really need to own that place or is the concept of ownership all in the mind?? I guess it is too many questions asked at the same time. :) What to do inquisitive minds cannot stop asking questions.

I felt deeply shackled when I was uprooted from my home in Sion. Oh, let me clear it at the very outset that we never owned a house at Sion, we used to stay in railway quarters. A privilege granted to us for 12 long years, just because my dad was an railway employee. No doubt our house was big enough, but then that just formed a smaller part of the criteria when compared to all other reasons I have to cite, as to why I loved my home so very much. That house had all my favorite corners. My computers desk… next to that my book shelf, if I got to point out more, each and every corners comes to my minds eye, allowing me no liberty to forget it at my convenience. It always awakens thousands of memories attached with it. What was it that made my home really very sweet to me?? I guess , I don’t have to wonder any more.

Is it the corners that I liked or the memories attached with it?? Yes it is the memories; I had lived the sweetest moments of my life in that house. Turning back now I feel both our house and those moments were rented, since we cannot keep both the things for ever. But what we can keep forever is the memories, which never looses it sight if we prefer to close our eyes and be with it.

Let me walk down my memory lane once again. Trust me, it is fun. Closing my eyes I can spot two girls in their skirt tops, going for their tuitions, early in the morning, out of which the younger had always to rush behind the elder one (since she preferred chasing her morning dreams rather than attending the boring science lectures). And the consequence of this---- they were always late for the class. Our fights, our fears, anxieties... If one was beaten it was always the norm, other felt the pain… on returning home all our favourite cuisine used to wait, I remember how I just used to throw my bag, wash my hands and enjoy the mini treat served by the loving hands of my mom. Dad always came to my rescue, when mom used to scold me for not studying… it was all very beautiful and perfect.

It was when I was in that home I realized the value of getting educated in the truest sense, I was lucky enough to meet my guru, and got a chance to get myself trained under his guidance. My beloved guruji helped in widening the horizon of my world. He made me realize and experience that if you can get in touch with the internal peace with in you, the biggest conflicts that we face (the intra personal conflict i.e. the conflict that we experience within ourselves) will begin to resolve and life no more remains a hell. What he used to say and now even I believe is that it is all in our thoughts and if we can win our thoughts, we can win the world.

Gods grace was felt at its peak in that house, when he was merciful enough to bestow on us, the sweetest gift ever presented, he gifted us our mom. If he hadn’t gifted it back to us, I must say that my world would have been ransacked and deserted. I know what ever he does is for the best. It was that home which granted us the courage to fight death, and to win and capture the glory of life.

It was in that house my sister dressed up in to a young beautiful bride and she stepped up in to her new life, her new world.

It was from here that I realized that relationship needs to be build and maintained, rather it needs to be cherished to grow it. Though this was the toughest lesson that I learned, but it will always remain the sweetest of all.

Our homes proximity to Siddhi Vinayak temple made me the biggest bakth of lord Ganesha ;). On the way to temple my friend Pooja joins me and then our discussion begins and by the time Siddhi Vinayak reaches we would be rushing with our topics and sees to it that we contribute the most by not missing the chance to exchange and express our views on the topic which we normally don’t prefer to share with others.

Can any one tell me, whether that house was magical or was it the magic of love, the love that we had for each other made it special?? Yes it is the bond that we create with each other which makes every place special and every thing lively. Now if some one still believes in the concept of rented house and the feeling of hostility towards it, just because they don’t own it; just remember that our life is also rented and what we live is just moments and what remains is memories. Now what kind of memories you will have will depend entirely on the kind of moments you live.

I will try to ensure that I will capture all the beautiful moments that I live and form the album of memories and gift it to my loved ones for their reference, to look back to it, to remember that such a spirited soul ever walked on this earth ;). Once again let me remind you that life is too short to have regrets. So live every moment. Enjoy!!!

Love,
Haritha

Monday, March 9, 2009

Searching what??? It's all here :)



To love some one is absolutely magical. It hurts a lot to see tears in the eyes of those whom you love. We all have heard this lovely quote, which says “love in your heart wasn’t put there to stay; love isn’t love till you give it away”. This thought must have definitely aroused in mind, which knows not to hate. Beautifully expressed, isn’t it?

When it comes to me I must admit that I have not mastered this art of expressing love. But it simply feels great to see the most innocent love in the eyes of my mother, her fear, anxiety, her concern….. It simply feels great to be her daughter.

Oh no!!! How can I forget to share this little piece of important news… today I had seen the most contended face…. That’s nobody else’s, but this bliss was radiating from a contended new mother. She have thousand things on her mind disturbing her, but this little idea, a new little sun shine has taken all her worries away. Today she is a mother, and a mother has the strength to withstand all odds. For her nothing is a challenge, her patience and perseverance can definitely melt rocks. It is not surprising; even Gods take birth on this earth to enjoy the bliss…. the love of mother. I salute the divinity; I salute the mother in you.

We all complain, we don’t have this or we don’t have that. Never contended, life goes in complaining. Have we ever thought of all the small moments which really pass by unnoticed? The problem with human beings is that they have taken most of the things for granted. We never accredit the presence of small small wonderful riches; we just surpass it with out even acknowledging it. If such is the case, then don’t you feel that we are paupers, trapped in our own definition of happiness or rather search for it? What I have observed is that this search ends up in piling of material possessions, or a dream of owning a big house, cars etc etc. How I wonder this could be the true definition of happiness.

Where is the contentment lost? Men have everything within him. It is just a quest to earn more. To put in words “to be a bada aadmi” that keeps him away from all the real possession that he has. I just have this one little question for all those people who believe in the concept of being a ‘bada aadmi’, does this refers to being big in size or in your deeds??

I remember Paulo Coelho’s book “the Alchemist” where the protagonist sets of his journey to discover treasure, but only returns to find it back from the place where he has started his journey. Isn’t it an irony? In a way it could be said that life is nothing but ‘Commedy of errors’ the way we lead our life, the search that we have for.

Many a times it happens that we end up hurting the sentiments of those whom we love… knowingly or unknowingly. The kind of person I am it takes a lot of time for me to apologize. The possible reason for this could be my proud or by the time I prepare myself to say a sorry, time must have elapsed and I think now even if I say a sorry that won’t be making any difference. And the consequence of this would be this. It keeps on irritating me. I could have evaded this entire problem if I had cultivated the habit of ‘listening’ to what others have to say. But then who has the time to understand what others have to express. I am always in a hurry, await my chance to answer.

But now I have understood the real value of the saying or rather the ‘SECRET FORMULA’ and here it is. BETTER BE LATE THAN NEVER. It’s a new dawn on me. I am practicing the art of being more tolerant and patient to others view and again a good news ‘I have started to listen’ :) Isn’t it incredible!!!

There are certain things which could be learned only by experiencing. I agree that every body is destined to be in a particular manner, but by your free will always try to influence it in your favor. Life is too short to have regrets, so live fully. Enjoy!!!

LOVE

Haritha